I don't know what It was?

There was happiness all around, But I was feeling blue, There was sunshine all around, But I felt the sky crying tears although few. The party was on its heights, still I was alone and sad, All were laughing merrily and in joy, still I felt nothing is good and all is bad. All gossiped and discussed many issues, I was quite and lost in thoughts, All found difference in my behavior, I was not in the room and wandering sorts. I don't know what was happening to me, i wasn't able to smile and just wanted to flee, I am sorry dear friend I must be different, i just wanted to spend time with me just being me... I don't know what it was... but it was quite different Jyoti Joseph